Just Your Ordinary Shape Shifting Girl

I suck at keeping up with this blog. Seriously, SUCK. So... I might have to bullet point what's been going on with me just so I don't miss anything. Don't expect literature here, my friends - its all about information. Think lectures or PowerPoint or something like that. Since January... which was forever ago.... 1. I've been hanging out with Josh on and off. No. We're not dating and I don't have those kinds of feelings for him. He's just a good guy to hang out with and he works with me. I've also been doing stuff with Kim on and off while Jared is at work and, of course, Leah and Quil and everyone. 2. Yes, I'm still trying to be friends with Quil. I think we've come a long way. Its not easy with all the feelings I have for him but I can't imagine my life without him in it. Its uncomfortable at times and I get sad but I usually snap out of it pretty quickly now. I wish I could say that I'm over it and glad I'm free, but that'

Let me make one point clear. I'm not really the type to just sleep with someone, or mess around with someone on a whim. I don't just have accidents... normally. I mean, I guess last night wasn't TOTALLY like that but it was something along those lines. You know when you've just about taken all the insanity you can handle and you know you're ready to snap and suddenly reason goes out the door? It was like that. Plus liquor. New Years Day I went to Seattle to try to figure out who I am now. I haven't felt like myself since Quil broke up with me, and lets be honest, that was two months ago. Two months that seem like forever ago, and still feels like yesterday. You can say I'm pathetic, but I'm not feeling any better. Its not like you can love someone enough to say you would marry them and have your heart just "fix" itself. It doesn't work like that. Anyway, back to where I was. I went to Seattle to shop for baby clothes for my sister's