Just Your Ordinary Shape Shifting Girl

I'm going to keep this as brief as I can. There is so much to say and nothing to say at all. I can't sleep. Food is the last thing on my mind. I can't feel anything but this rock in the pit of my stomach and this hole in my chest, and I don't know how or if it can be fixed. Its not that I didn't know what I was getting into when I fell in love with Quil. I did. And I didn't mean to fall in love with him, but I did. And now I'm stuck because I love him more than I every should have let myself and I don't regret it at all. How could I have  not  fallen for him when he is exactly perfect for me. Except, someone in the fate department of life decided maybe I'm not perfect for him. Or maybe I am. Its no secret that I've never been a fan of imprinting, even with all of the good things that everyone who has imprinted has said. I don't understand or like it. That's not to say I don't love Claire. I LOVE Claire! She is all those things tha

Its Halloween, which means weird and inexplicable things are BOUND to happen, right? I mean, ghosts and goblins and purple Jello shots will do that to people. Not to mention really sexy pirate costumes when your boyfriend has this scruffy pirate beard thing going on. And then you and your roommate find these super cute Ninja Turtle costumes that match! Oh, and then your boyfriends brother, he's going to bar tending school and needs to try out his skills. And fog. Don't forget the fog. ::headdesk:: So, that's the setup. Thursday night was the Halloween party that Quil and Embry had been planning for a few weeks. Seth, Collin and Brady were there with their band and so excited to be able to play. The decorations were up and the band was playing and there was fog. Lots and lots of fog - so thick that you had to swat it from your face and choked if you breathed too deeply, but it was really pretty perfect because Halloween is like that. Things are supposed to by mysterious an

*Blows the dust off the long forgotten blog.* As promised, I'm going to write here. I'll be honest, a lot has happened since I last wrote and I'm not even going to attempt to catch everyone up. I'll just give you the here and now's of it all and go from there. I can honestly say, my life is at some immeasurable high point right now. Its good. No, its GREAT. I'm happy with my classes at school. I'm happy living with Leah in Forks. I'm happy with managing The Buzz. I'm with Quil, which seems so impossible and so perfect at the same time. It can't get any better, can it? And then I Skyped with my sister and BAM ... it got better. I'm going to be an aunt! *dies* Yeah, my sister (who lives in Germany with her iffy-at-best fiance) is preggo. According to her, she is about four months or something along which means that next spring, I'm going to have a new little bundle of baby to snuggle. Via Skype. Which kind of sucks, but I don't real

I seriously haven't written here in THAT long? Damn.... I'm not even going to try to catch you up on everything you missed. Lets just say I'll try to start doing a better job, OK? I'll give you the nutshell version of what's happened since I got my memory back. I'm very much still with Quil. I finally told him I love him and he loves me. I moved out of my dad's house when he married his girlfriend and have an apartment in Forks. Leah moved in recently, so I could pay my rent and keep up with my college classes. Quil and I went to Mexico. It was definitely as great as it sounds. I will never look at a cantina the same way again. Seriously... there's too much to write, but you can go to Quil's blog to get all the details. I'm in there a little along with Claire and all that.