Just Your Ordinary Shape Shifting Girl

In the course of trying to get my memory back I have done everything I can think of to spark something. Nothing has worked. I've watched home movies, gone through pictures and scrapbooks, gone back to Seattle, gone to the bakery, hung out with Quil - EVERYTHING. Things are getting frustrating to say the least. Sunday night I was going through my scrapbooks and pictures for what seems like the 100th time when I just couldn't stand it any more! I slammed the book shut and ran outside. I can't tell you that I've ever felt the way I felt just then before in my life. I was shaking and hot but not sweating. I couldn't think and every part of my body just felt wrong. My dad must have known how upset I was because he followed me out onto the porch to try to calm me down. He told me to go for a run and that it always used to help. I stood up feeling things quickly starting to fall apart and took off as fast as I could toward the beach. I was running and crying and my back fe...

I am writing this blog with literally no idea where to start. I've been in this hospital room for 2 days now and it feels like a lifetime. I'm going to tell you what I know which, to be honest, isn't much. I know my name is Willow Black. I know that I suffered a broken neck and a pretty bad concussion and now I'm in the hospital. Now for the things I don't know. I don't know how I was hurt. I don't know the people who come to visit me claiming to be my family and friends. I don't know where I live, or what I like, or what I was like as a child. I can't tell you how strange and scary it is to wake up with your head exploding and to look around and not recognize anyone around you. People hug me and talk to me and I can tell that I should know them by the looks on their faces but there is nothing. Not even a fuzzy blur of a memory there to clue me in to if they are who they say they are. How do I know who I should trust, or if anyone is who they say the...

Last night was the Valentine's Day party at Ari, Jake and Brennan's house. It seems like lately we have all had a little more time to spend together and it has been great to be able to see Ari, Jake and Brennan again and to be able to get to know Kantra, Jake's girlfriend a little better. Sam and Emily - who looks gorgeous and glowing by the way, were there and since I hadn't seen Sam around in awhile, Quil and I asked him to come outside for few minutes to talk with us. We have been smelling a strange vamp around during our patrol shift. The scent is there and then it isn't. Its north and then its south. There is no rhyme or reason to it and I think that is the part that makes me the most nervous. I keep expecting it to just drop out of the sky on me while I'm on patrol. So far no one has seen it but I know its there. Anyway, Sam knows now and as alpha, he can handle it however he thinks it should be handled. I just needed to make sure he knew - enough business...

I don't really want to go in to the details on all of this since, God's honest truth, it makes me nauseated. If you want to know what happened, you can read Quil's blog at http://olympiccovenrpg.ning.com/profiles/blogs/rebound-1 . That will give you all the information that you need or maybe even, for some reason, want to know. So, now my side of the story. Did he really think I had moved on that easily with Mike and Matt's brother? Give me a break. I told him when we broke up that I didn't like what I had to do and that I didn't want to end things but that it just had to be done. Nothing has been the same with us since. I miss my friend, I miss spending time with him and just having fun. After the evening of hell I spent thinking about all the possible scenarios that could have taken place as Quil left the bar with whomever the woman was, I decided to call him and let him know that I saw him. It turns out that he already knew because Becca had gotten to him fi...

Things had been good. No, things had been GREAT! Pretty much everyone knew about Quil and I and our relationship after the party last week. We were happy and having fun and pretending like everything was right I guess. Maybe that should have been my first clue. Quil was going to meet Claire last night for some fun but before he left to see her we decided that we could spend some time together at our spot on Second Beach. I was there waiting for him and we had time to just hang out and talk. I asked when he was supposed to be at Claire's house and he realized that he was running late. Thats about the time that his phone rang. Claire's mom was frantic trying to find her. Naturally, Quil took off scared that something awful had happened. He phased and went to look for her and I ran in to the woods calling for her. I decided that searching as a wolf was easier and phased too. She hadn't gone far and we picked up her scent before much time had gone by. Thank Goodness she was saf...

The last 10 posts were all transfered over from my ning blog and occured over the course of 3 or 4 months. To read them on their original dates, please go to http://olympiccovenrpg.ning.com/profiles/blog/list?user=296hax7rhostm I'll try to keep this one updated more often from here on out. Hope you enjoy and come follow all of our great characters. Follow me on twitter at www.twitter.com/seattlewillow

SeattleWillow @_Quil_Ateara *Hears the front door slam and pulls away from you quickly trying to catch her breath.* What was that? _Quil_Ateara @SeattleWillow *Shrugs* I didn't hear anything. *Starts kissing you again* _joeblack +Yells up the steps.+ Hey @seattlewillow. Are you here? +Looks around and sees her phone on the table.+ She must be around SeattleWillow @_Quil_Ateara *Shoves you back, panicked.* Sh!t Quil! @_joeblack 's home!! _Quil_Ateara @SeattleWillow WHAT!!!?! *Falls off the bed, looking for his clothes* SeattleWillow @_Quil_Ateara *Looking frantically for her clothes.* I thought he said he wasn't going to be home until tomorrow! _joeblack +Sets down the keys and suitcase and starts up the steps. Calls for @seattlewillow again.+ _Quil_Ateara @SeattleWillow Dammit, Willow!! He is coming up here... *Panics* Where is my jeans? SeattleWillow @_Quil_Ateara *Shoves your jeans at you and pushes you in to the closet.* Just shhhh... * Shuts the door & jumps in bed....