Just Your Ordinary Shape Shifting Girl

I keep singing that version of Happy Birthday that Marilyn Monroe does thats all breathy and hot while I type this up. Why, you ask? Because my BFF/ex/current roomy had a birthday yesterday! With all this cash I have sitting around, we just HAD to go out and celebrate. We hired a cap to drive us around, started in on the Jack and Coke and let it ride. We went to this club where I like to go because the music is loud, the lights are low and there are great drinks. We were both buzzing pretty good before we even got there but with a whole night ahead of us, neither of us was slowing down. I talked with some people I knew and Quil danced with some other girls. I danced with some other guys and eventually got to dance with each other.  It wasn't like one of those stupid high school slow dances or anything lovey at all. Let me try to set the scene a little better. The lights are low except the glare from the neon that flashes through the dark to the beat of the music. Its hot, and th

When I last wrote here, I told you about my misadventure ... or should I say total lack of thought and restraint with my boss, Nate. I was "that" girl.  You know; the one who drinks too much, lets her total 13 month sexual drought get the best of her then bangs her boss complete with the pictures to prove it. *dies* As if I didn't feel terrible enough, he had more going on inside his head than just sex and some pictures - end of story. No, no, no. Nate decided to share the love with the tech department and have some of the high lights added to the bad cop character I had worked on several months ago. I swear, I had NO idea and believed him when he told me he deleted the pictures: I should have known better. Anyway... the game was released to the creators about 3 weeks ago which means I got a pre-sale copy. I took it home and was really excited to see how the character I created came together in the game. I worked hard on her and wanted to show Quil and Embry first. I ga

I know I have talked a lot about my job lately and honestly, other than having Quil living with me now, its about the only thing that has been going on in my life. *blushes* Literally. I don't date and I don't have any desire to have a "boyfriend" with how my life is. I'm happy being a wolf and hanging out with friends and going out single. Its not like I'm some hermit but honestly, my sex life has been a little.... how should I say? Non-existent? Yeah. Definitely nonexistent until I lost all sanity and my resumed "virginity" last night. Ladies and gentlemen, the 13 1/2 month dry spell of Willow Black came to a screeching halt last night at the complete and total loss of dignity and thought brought to you by Absolut vodka and some ice blue eyes. Dammit... My boss is hot. I'm not ashamed to say that, and I think I said it before. Not only is he hot, but he is a smooth talker and easy to hang out with. He's smart and capable and I don't t

The fact of the matter is that I have no idea what I'm doing most of the time. I'm content and discontent. Happy and Sad. Sure and completely unsure at the same time.  And now, to top it all off, there's another fork in my road. I don't like these forks and I'd rather stab someone with them than decide which way I should go so making a major life decision like taking a big girl job is throwing me for a loop. I have been at The Buzz since the day the doors opened - longer if you count all the time I helped get the shelves stocked and things up and running. I love that job. I love meeting new people and making coffee and seeing my friends when they stop by but its not anything to do with my major. I've invested 3 years of my life in Criminal Psychology now so I should do something with it, shouldn't I? I should use the internship I had at Forks State Prison and try to find something permanent counseling the inmates there but its so dark and depressing and I

I'm one of those people who will do just about anything for my friends and that holds especially true if you're my best friend and I'm excited about being asked.  This is my view from the recliner after spending the evening with Embry, Hayley and Quil the other night... we'll see how different it looks from Quil's blog - which I'm sure will be around too. If you read my previous post then you already know the drama that is taking place between Quil and Embry over Quil's feelings for Embry's girlfriend, Hayley.  If you didn't read it.... go back, read it (and all the other posts) and catch up. There has been so much tension and grouchiness on both of their parts that patrol hasn't been a cake walk lately. They barely speak and the tension is ridiculous.  So... Embry wants Quil to be able to hang out with him and Hayley - which totally makes sense since he is his brother. But, on the other hand, Quil doesn't think he can handle being around

Did I ever mention that I am an excellent secret keeper? No seriously, I really am. If I wasn't, there is no way on God's green Earth that I could have hidden Quil's crush on his brother's girlfriend like I did and then hide all the other.... that's for another blog. Trust me. What it all comes down to is that awhile back Quil told me that he has these feelings for Hayley. Now normally I would have gotten a little protective of him but I really like Hayley! She is sweet and pretty and fun, and maybe its because I know Embry is Ga Ga over her, but I can see why Quil likes her. What I can't see is how this is all going to work out so that both Quil and Embry are happy. The other night, Quil showed up on my doorstep looking like someone had run over his cat. (Sorry Tabby). He didn't have a lot to say but was carrying his duffel bag and needed a place to crash so naturally I let him in. I think its sweet that he still knocks considering he has the only other

So, once upon a time there was a future blog. This is what I see. This is what I pray for and dream about and feel in the deepest part of my soul that is right. Its why I have never given up and why I will endure anything and everything. Pregnancies, crazy orgies, girlfriends, and time. Its how I feel and its honest and real and terrifying all at the same time - mostly because it may very well be just me. It may be my hopeless devotion and bleeding filled to the brim self. Regardless, I have to say it and I want you to know too. I'll try to go easy on the mush but sometimes mush happens. So here we go. Fast forward to September 4, 2020. .................................................................................. Walking inside from the party, I still can't help but grin and get butterflies at the smile on your face over the beautiful young woman who makes you light up. No, its not me... not entirely me. Claire is 16 and still brings out the best in you. I am so ble

I forgot I had this place. Its dusty *coughs* I can't even begin to play catch up and since the last post I wrote was also a catch up post, maybe this should become a bi-annual event. And how in the world did I manage to wait this long?  If you've been following along at all then you know I work a lot and patrol a lot and ... well, mostly work and patrol. Let see, what else.... Quil and I are.. were best friends until a couple of weeks ago when he decided to blame me for his girlfriend breaking up with him or however that happened. You know what, lets talk about something happy.  I just finished my college internship at the Forks Pen. As in Prison. I was lucky enough to land an internship close to home and doing what I studied to do. My job was to meet with a group of inmates - some of them were just victims of their lives, some were hardened criminals and every shade in between. I didn't know what to expect when I arrived on that first day but I couldn't wait to di